Here we go again.

Hello, love. Today i feel so paranoid. I hate this feeling. I swear i do. Just that, im very hot-tempered. And i just cant help myself but to yell at people. Anyone; friends, siblings, and yes, parents. I know i may sound rude now, but you dont know how it feels to be me. I know my family loves me, theyre doing all these because they care about me, they want the best for me. And i appreciate that. I just.. i just dont get it. Why do i always feel as if im over-protected? My friends said its normal for teens my age. But i dont think so. I feel like im living in a tiny box. Im trapped, cant get out. As if im a puppet, controlled and be told what to do.

But when im happy, i really am. That feeling which you dont want it to end. But you know that it will. Why do all good things come to an end, i thought. Never knew whats the answer. But at times, well, most of the time actually, i feel insecure. I dont know why, and not sure why. Its like, im surrounded by a lot of people, trying to let me down.

I just wish I could roll back the clocks to when things were the same. Back then i was just a hyper kid looking for a fun playtime. But now, thing aren't the same. I have gone to a different way. I change, people change, things just change, and i am not that hyper kid looking for a fun time anymore. I am a teenager looking for a person to love and a person to hug when im in need.

And i totally mean what i say. I'm so sorry, Ma. Sorry for yelling at you. I hope youre reading this. Love you.