1) I love Owl City. Yes, Adam with his ever-famous song, Fireflies. I love each one of his songs. They calm me, as if I'm in a different world. They give me peace, when I'm messed up. And the lyrics, totally meaningful and can be related to me sometimes. Oh god i cant explain here how much i love Owl City. I swear, i love them so much. I dont know myself. I change a lot. I mean, i love way different bands than Owl City, like My Chemical Romance, Panic At The Disco, Muse, LMFAO, All Time Low, and all that.
2) I'm gaining weight like a fat pig. And i totally hate this fat feeling. I used to be stick thin, anorexic, to be exact. I am recovering, i swore i wont gain even an ounce but now i gained like, 10kgs. I swear im feeling so fat. I miss being brittle, being fragile, and being concerned by everyone. I love the "empty stomach" feeling i used to have. I miss passing out. I miss saying No to foods. I miss that tired feeling i get everytime i never eat. I miss being thin. I miss being anorexic. Yes, i love being a skeleton. I may sound like a weirdo, but there's a reason why. BECAUSE I AM SICK OF BEING FAT.
3) I feel over-protected. But insecure. And i get paranoid easily. I hate this. I totally, effing hate this. I want freedom, i want to do whatever i want, but still be loved. I always feel left-out by everyone; My family, my friends, everyone! And i'd always think that everyone is mad and hate me. When in reality, they are not. Well, at least they act like they're not. Hm.
4) I got tons to say. But i just cant think of any. What is my problem?
Ending today's post here. Thanks for reading, anyone. Okbye. <3
